I am a type A personality. I am a YELLOW/RED temperament. Both of these describe someone with endless energy and passionate determination. Also included is a tiny bit of “I can do it by myself” and “I am always right” attitude (the RED tendency). Although, I’m certain no one has ever noticed that about me.
For the first 20 years of our marriage, I appeared to be successful at pulling my own weight on the grand scale of regulated duties of husband and wife.
I didn’t need any help. Actually, I may have said those words on occasion.
Why is it so difficult for some of us to admit we need help?
I am not certain exactly when it happened; but, life is definitely more difficult now than it was when we were first married. I seem to need help…constantly- just to live a normal life!
These days, I do laundry – never quite completing the final load. I do dishes – never completely cleaning the kitchen. I change sheets – never quite finishing making the beds. Yesterday, I vacuumed the living room and Duane asked me if I was done – because the vacuum was sitting in the middle of the room. Really? Yes, I supposed I was done.
I love a clean house; but, it seems I am no longer as concerned about the finished details as I have been in the past.
I lost interest in cooking several years ago. Miraculously, it was around the same time Duane started watching Rachel Ray and his beloved cooking channel. He is the chef in residence now! He thinks cooking is FUN!
Drama camp ended three weeks ago. Costumes and props were still waiting to be put away. If not for one of our granddaughters, who came to help yesterday, who knows when they would have been returned to the costume attic.
I am the queen of Christmas, and have always unloaded and reloaded the attic of massive boxes of decorations on my own time schedule…the RIGHT way…until lately. I need help.
Admittedly, if I have spare time, I’d much rather shop, read a book or write my blog than do housework. However, I never used to be like this. Admitting I need help is a tough one for me. Over the years, it probably has triggered some unpleasant behavior on my part. Shocking, I know.
Fortunately, I married a man who is unbelievably patient and forgiving. In fact, he is a natural care-giver. He is a BLUE/RED temperament. The BLUE gives him a huge heart, sensitive spirit and a desire to help. Why did it take me SO long to appreciate him or admit I can’t live without him?
I think God rolls His eyes as He watches some of us bulldoze our way through life – doing things our own way, and not asking for His help.
ALL temperaments have this weakness.
We get self-sufficient and strong minded and think this is a good thing? The Bible is full of verses cautioning us to seek God’s help as we tend to plow through life with our own agendas and strength.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding! In all your ways acknowledge God and He will direct your paths”! Proverbs 3:5 & 6
The Bible is full of stories about people who tried doing things their own way, with their own strength. They disastrously dove in head first to catastrophic results. I’ve read about them hundreds of times.
God actually created humans to need HIM. To reinforce this lesson, He gave us marriage as a picture of our relationship with Him – with a man and wife needing each other!
Hello! I am amazed how many bad results are required for me to learn some lessons. (I can’t keep blaming my behavior on my delightful YELLOW temperament).
None of us were intended to “go it alone” in this life! God not only wants us to ask His help; but, He has furnished many of us with spouses and family who are here to help as well!
“But you asked God for help and He gave you the victory. God is always on the alert, constantly on the lookout for people who are totally committed to him”. II Chronicles’ 16:8 (The Message)
Lesson is being learned.
Thank you, Duane, for all your help.
“Oh! Did I just hear you call me to dinner?”
To find out more about your temperament and how you think- check out The Real You by Vicki Barnes.